a destined disaster

Let me cry one final time for you
I have fallen and I am broken
Holding on to what you tore apart
I know there was nothing from the start

Take a moment we were together
Thought it could last more than forever
In my life nothing meant more
It was only you I could ask for

But our time is already over
Destined to be mine, no not ever
You could never let it be that way
How could I just let you walk away

Loving you was the sweetest affair
It turned to be the biggest heartbreak
Did you notice, did you even care
Now what's left, there is only pain

Tomorrows, I'll forget the thoughts of you
Even if everyone says not to
Even if everything reminds me of you
But now it's over you're no longer a part of me
Just as it was, we were never meant to be

how you break this heart

A moment,just you and I
That's such a lie

And I'm looking back at
the months that passed by
I can't help but ask why

What happened
Has your heart hardened

You acted so sweetly
And I fell so madly

You're always so nice
Tell me is it true

I'm not really sure
How can I be?

When you would never show me
Who you were, who you are

I guess you want us
To be a world apart

The time I had spent
Trying to know you
I don't know if i regret

Because in this heart
There is so much pain
Wanting only to be happy
but ended up waiting in vain

There's no you
There's no me
This love is lost
Can it still be found?

My eyes could never see
What love is like for me
My heart could never feel
If love could have been real

What is left to feel
Can someone come to heal
This heart thats hurting
From too much breaking

Why is it like this
I dont want to love you anymore

I don't want to see your smile
I don't want to hear your voice

Because if I do
I'll just keep falling your you

Your Choice To My Heart //[sorry typo ]

So close yet so far
Cause these hearts are
Two worlds apart

Could I ever make them meet?

A girl so sweet
And just some guy

Maybe it's just a lie
And I should keep dreaming
That there might be something

My heart is tired
alone and down

Wanting someone to love
A feeling it could never have

You would have
Filled up all these
Empty feelings

But it's your choice
Mend the broken piece
Or leave it as it is

It will wait for you
If you choose to

Or just keep falling
For this lie that is
You love me too

In Love With You?

description:something short because i'm feeling sleepy

Am I in love with
A college girl?

I'm not mesmerized
By others anymore
I wasn't like this before

Am I in love
With a college girl

The way she smiles at me
I can't resist but see

Just stare at her beauty
What's wrong with me

What's this feeling I have
Am I falling in love

Am I in love
With a college girl

My heart she melts
Without saying a word

Definetly she heard
How I've always felt

What's she going to say
Whatever it is, It'll be okay

I guess I'm sure
I'm in love with a college girl

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The One I Need

I don't how
I make it through the day

This crazy life
Is just making me insane

But when I hear you
Tell what you want to say

Unconsiously you wash away
All this hidden pain


You know
You're the one I need

Won't you let me breathe?
Oh so I plead

Just be around
Catch me when I fall down


You're the one
Who keeps me together

You make my heart
Beat go oh so faster

You make me
Weak in my knees

You know I'm yours
Whenever you please

Stay, get to know
Me better

Make your heart at ease
And read this honest love letter

Don't say
You don't care

That just makes me sure
That you're just there

You know
You're the I need

Won't you let me breathe?
Oh so I plead

Just be around
Catch me when I fall down

You make me feel
That i am in the clouds

And my heart is screaming
Oh just so loud

Let my life
Revolve around you

And someday too
Maybe the otherway around

You prevent my hearts disaster
So won't you stay forever?

is this suicidal friendship

description: unsure of what to do.

Why am I afraid
What makes me scared

Is it the thought of you
Going through my head

A love afraid to mend
Afraid of what would become

What's supposed to be done
Can't make it out

My heart's in doubt
A friendship in danger

If I try and move
Would I become a stranger

I don't want this to end
But this feeling already is
Hard to hide

Should I or is it
Really just suicide

I want to keep you
What am I supposed to do

I am so unsure
Help me would you

This feeling is pure
I wouldn't want to waste it
This is only for you

I never want to hear you say
Goodbye, i want to end this
Don't ever say it please

But someday, I'll tell you

I don't want to lose you
Not ever, Not now

I don't want to lose you
Not even as a friend

And It's okay
Even if friendships all there is to stay

My Last Love Song

description: it's not really a song (i wish i knew how to compose =/ ) not really a love song its something a little more


Lying all alone
Writing this down
My last love song

Think,what went wrong

My shaking fingertips
Show that I'm scared

You see i'm unprepared
I don't want to speak this words
But I want to show how i feel

All I wanted was to
Show that I like you

This feeling is real
This is real

You make it hard for me
To know if it could be

Was there something
In what you show

Or is it nothing
I want to know

You had no feelings
Was it really so

I don't want to live a lie
Maybe it is forever a no

I give up

All there is left is to cry
To my lonely hearts content

These tears aren't easy to hide anymore
Lets make it like it was before

Because I know I'm just
Forever a friend

And I don't want to pretend
Yes, I wish there was more

But if it's meant like this
I'm still happy the way it is

Just allow me to
Always treasure you

a love story for us

description: too much koreanovelas are getting to me. quote from harana "di ba't ikaw ang bidang artista? at ako ang iyong leading man.. sa istoryang nagwawakas sa pag ibig na wagas"

if only i could write a love story
that includes only you and me

to the sweetest places
we would go

where it will take us
i don't know

under the moonlight
in a sweet silent night
only you in my sight

romance set in snow
watching your beauty glow

the sunset waits and watches
meant only to set for us

we'd make promises
and never forget

i'd make it so
we'd never cry

you'd never be hurt
i wouldn't make it a lie

we'd always share
sweet moments together

i'd make it so that
i could be your prince
you would be my princess

we would be meant
only for each other

you are mine
and i am yours

and if only
i would let it be
so that you could love me

uneasy. thinking of you

description: suffering from a little depression. i'm missing her

the weight of my heart
getting too much to bare
i hope it doesn't show

but its splitting me apart
only sadness remains

the way i feel tonight
so down so down

my body's breaking down
save me so i won't drown

in these tears that
have no meaning

i'm crying
i'm drowning

what's wrong, i can't
find the answer

is it you?

what if it's you
that my heart is after

what if it's you
all along

what if i'm
missing you tonight

are you still listening
because this is true

not a million heartbreaks
could ever make me hate you

but im curious
would i ever have
a moment to feel your love

do i mean something to you

tell me (tell me)
what secrects you hold

what are you afraid of
go ahead and speak

be honest be true
whether you hate me or so


scream at me or take my hand
as i write this song down

go ahead and be real
show me just how you feel

because i love you
and i want you to be true

i may not be the only one for you
but your the only one for me

stay forever in my heart
you'll always be
so special to me

dedication

since you got here. its probably because your a really close friend of mine.
this is a private blog of my writings.

tell me if you like what you read.
enjoy. i'm going to update from time to time.

comments are appriciated too

don't show this to anyone.
keep visiting but don't show this to anyone.
as i said this is for my close friends only.
those who i trust

some info:
i love to write. espcially on how i feel at certain moment.
i don't force myself to write it just comes.
i get inspiration from music.

from bands like dashboard, matchbook romance, yellowcard, secondhand serenade and a lot more. you might see a few lines here and there. its more of i really appreciate their music rather than what you'd call copy pasting.

of a confession

description: a random writing based on a confession


my heart was racing
so anxious, so nervous
waiting for the time
that you'd come down

what would i say
what would i do
i keep thinking about you

what would you say
would it bring life or death
to this already lonely soul
i could only hope

then you came and gave
me a chance to speak
but what i wanted would
never be

i wanted to put a hand in my ear
what you were saying
isn't what i wanted to hear

when you told me, it would
never be, you and me
i broke down, i was drowning
in my hidden tears

i wanted to show that i was still okay
though my heart was shattered and
in disarray

and i saw that you would cry
is it pity or just a lie
were you honest in what you said
when you made my heart bleed

i want to know (2x)
did you mean those words
don't lie to me please
of what you really feel

my hear is yours to break
but don't break it with a lie
and believe me when i say
i've already fallen for you

(chorus)
[Instrumental]

im not ever expecting a yes
but please tell me its the truth

unlike those roses
my feeling wont fade
if i ever have the chance
i would give all the roses
there would ever be
just to show how much you mean to me

untitled unspoken

description: one of the first stuff i wrote during 1st year college

I breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
As i write this letter that holds all
My heart races fearing conversation
I'm not talented with reason nor with words
I can fail before I ever try

Try to understand
i'm not trying to impress you
i'm not trying to impress anyone
i'm just trying to show myself to you

I'm not smart
I'm not rich
nor handsome or sane

You're so beautiful
I've convinced myself that
no one else is quite as beautiful

I guess it’s luck, but it’s the same
Hard luck, that we had a chance to meet
In a world filled with so much distress
it was luck that i met someone like you

You knew what i knew
i was shocked
You liked what i liked
i was amazed
You were the one
i was looking for

So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart was yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

I thought you could pick-up
Trace the scars, and fit the pieces
of my brokenheart
I thought i wished i hoped

But i guess it was a one-sided infatuation
Just an over expectation

Maybe there's a way out
Against what i've felt inside

is there time to change what i've done
i don't know if i made a move
is there time to still follow my heart
i don't know if i made the right choice

I am agile
I can break and take it with a smile
I recover quickly

Though smiles could cover up what i hide
and laughter could always show
No anger no anguish
I'll convince you soon that I am fine

I guess i'll stay quiet
I'll stay near,i'll stay close
It can never be what i thought
So much for, so much more
I'll stay if ever you'll need me

I'll catch any tear that would run
down your face
even if it wasn't meant for me

I'll be someone whom to
share all your anguish

I'll take all your sorrow
I'll take all the bitterness

I'll be someone who can try
to take away the hate

I could try as much to show you
all the hope
all the joy
all the beauty
that still lies within life

just maybe

description: this was a basis for my "a moment with you" so you might see some of the same lines

my heartbeat going much faster
should i tell or wait for an answer

there's no going back
we're so close

breathe in for luck
it's anything goes

i'm feeling numb
wait let me enjoy
this moment

could you make this
last forever?

i don't want to part
its too much of a heartache

why don't you try
and let me through

maybe to your heart
there's a place
where i am not a stranger

maybe it's just me
who thinks there's more

why don't you try to see
maybe there's something
to you and me

could it ever be?
its what i'm waiting for

a moment with you

descriptions: my simple something for valentines. funny, its how i felt at that moment with her. and as you can see some of the lines came from some of my other works because again i gave it to her. i want it to be special. if your reading this, i hope you liked it

Its so silent
And were alone now
Wait for a moment
Let's slow down

The world is in pause
oh just for us
And I'm lost
Cause we are together

But before this ends

Let me treasure this
Oh, won't you treasure this

I don't get this chance everyday
So give me some time to say

You mean so much to me
And if you could let it be

Would you let me
Be a part of you

Would you let me
Hold your hand
And be in your loving arms

Would you be my Cinderella
you and only you

Through sweet laughter
Even in sorrow
Or in times of anger

Let's share it
Let's share it together

But what's that
Getting much louder

Oh it's my heartbeat
It's louder than ever

Pardon, it's wanting you
It's waiting for you

But tell me
now or maybe later
or years after
what would be your answer

I wouldn't mind
if it ends in tears

I woundn't mind
If there's someone else

I wouldn't mind
If I had to wait

But please tell me
Please tell me

And if it was meant
I'd let you see
That if i have you
Nothing else would matter

Because with you
Nothing else matters

And I'll try and make
Things better than it
Ever was

Right there by your side
Is all I want to be

All I want to be
Is with you
Only with you

half-awake 2

description: this is more of a collection of some of my works because i wanted this to be as sweet as i could make it. this is one of the few that i actually gave. hope she liked it

another night all alone
just thinking about you

whats wrong with me
i can't seem to sleep
whats it going to be

breathe in so deep

my heart is racing
so anxious, so nervous

as i string these words together
i wish i could wrap up both our hearts
i wish i could stay with you forever
how i wish we would never be apart

i'll say this so

Tonight, tommorow
i will fall for you
over and over again

i'll wait for a chance
but would there ever be romance?

to be with you once more
keep me i'm yours

i want you to know
i want you to know
i mean all these words

talk to me all night long
i'll never go
don't give me that smile
you know i can't say no


Even if I don't have the voice
If you’d like, I’ll sing this to you
but my broken voice... is quivering
cause you are everything
you are everything

Even if i don't have the words
If you'd like, i'll write for you
if its the only way to say
i hope with me you could stay

do remember me tonight
When you’re fast asleep
i want to be by your side

could you turn in this direction
i'm staring at perfection

dont you blame me
if i fell for you
cause i already have
im captivated by your beauty

no one else is quite as beautiful

would you let it be?

i'd try
to take away all the bitterness
i'd try
and take away all your sorrow

i'll stay with you forever
if that is what you wish

and i'd catch the tears that
run down your face
i'd take away all your fears
i would stay for years and years


i wont try to be a prince charming
but i'd try to be what you desire


how should this end
should it be hope, asking for a chance?
should it be time, waiting for an answer?

maybe i love you
theres nothing more to say
because no matter how many times
i'd say i love you
won't show how much I really do

just saying i'm sorry

description: i wanted to tell her how much i am sorry for what i did. if you ever read this i'm sorry! i really am.

i'll say this simply
hey,i'm sorry

i know i'm not perfect
and not smart enough
to realize that i've
hurt you

how i wish i could
turn back time
and change everything
that happened

i would change the
things that i did
and turn it so that
right now we would be
together (together)

i would turn time
so that i would have
done all of it so sweet
and so right

i would go back
and be what you hoped for
what you wished
what you wanted

but i'm sorry
i just can't

whats done is done
i can't run away from this

i know that i was wrong
and i don't want to be
the one to ever hurt you

and this simple song
is a dedication
to how much i want to
say i'm sorry

because you mean so much
to me, that won't ever change

i'll try, i'll learn
because i want to be with you
some more

give me some more time
let me spend it with you

so i'll tell you again
i'm sorry. i'm sorry
and i'm sorry